I wish I could say ……
That I don’t have it together all the time
Or half the time
That sometimes more often than not my feelings get hurt
That I struggle
That lately crowded places upset me
That lately I want to spend more time alone
That I cant wait to move out of Texas but I will miss my mom and dad and best friend so much
That when I look in the mirror I dont see what others see
That my self confidence lacks more than not
That I struggle with finding my place somedays
That I have dreams and hopes for this little corner of the interwebs
That when I look at a plank document on the computer I get anxious
That sometimes I am really proud of my accomplishments but hesitate to tell people about them
That I hate that being excited about our accomplishments translates into bragging
That I am nervous about my high school reunion…scratch that anxious
That felt good.
What do you wish you could say?
I wish I could tell people that I’m tired and weak. I wish that when I told them this that they would just agree instead of trying to force how strong I am down my throat. I’m no superwoman and I’m tired of constantly having to be pretending to be so.
I wish I could say that while I love Skyping with my family it just makes me homesick, I think it would hurt their feelings though so I keep doing it.
I wish I could tell people that I don’t have the confidence I wish I did.
i heart you! anxiety can be tough but you can overcome it! hoping you get to feeling better about things soon. hugs!
I sometimes wish I could tell people when they ‘ve crossed a line – it doesn’t help to be too polite. Great idea for a post! Way to put yourself out there!
Ahh … girl I am right there with you on so many of these, especially:
‘sometimes more often than not my feelings get hurt’
and
‘I struggle with finding my place somedays’
I wish I could make the boyfriend see just how badly I want to be engaged. And how much it hurts that we aren’t yet
Love you girlie!!! xoxo
I feel like I never have it all together and ALONE time for me is like a dream come true! You just gotta keep on keepin’ on…you do a great job! 😉
Emily @ Dirt & Pearls
Love this post 🙂
Oh friend. It’s like we’re the same person, except I blew off my high school reunion. LOL.