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I don’t have a lot of words today

Its all too familiar.

I feel as though in my 28 years on this planet I have spent more time in hospital rooms watching my parents suffer than should be allowed. 

When I was 9 months old my dad nearly died. He was playing touch football with friends, got hit in the stomach and ended up having to have major surgery. 

When I was 14 my dad nearly died. He has chrons disease and had a bad flair up, had he not gone to the hospital that day the dr’s said he would have died.

He was back in the hospital for the same thing when I was 16. 

At 21 my mom suffered paretinitis and had major surgery. She was in ICU for 3 weeks and a regular room for 3 weeks. She had minor surgery again 10 months later. 

I sit in a hospital room at 28 years old. Looking at my dad who a mere 8 months ago had a head full of black hair, and was laughing and joking. Now he sits frail, drained, in pain and suffering from a cancer I pray daily he beats. 

He had a surgery last night that doesn’t seem to be helping.

He is losing hope and I am losing hope and sanity.

Please pray, his name is Mark. 

Thank you.

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  1. Cait wrote:

    praying for you and Mark Neely. I know cancer is tough. My dad went through it a few years ago and has never fully been the same but did beat it. It’s difficult to see loved ones in pain when you are helpless but having a strong faith, friends and fellow bloggers who will be there every step of the way is a comfort ( i hope). i wish i knew the blogging community when my dad was going through cancer and am so happy to feel like i have a strong connection with a few of you like yourself to make struggling days a bit easier. hugs from chicago! xo

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  2. Praying for you and your Dad, Neely. I always find it unfair how some people seem to be tested more than others.

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  3. Karenna wrote:

    Praying for your dad and you. My sister has Chron’s disease and my husband had cancer 2 years ago. It’s tough. Keep faith, you can do this!

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  4. Lindsay wrote:

    Sending positive thoughts your way Neely. Hugs & love.

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  5. I will most definitely be praying for him and your entire family. Keep the faith, be strong and know you are in our thoughts!

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  6. Really thought I was going to lose my dad a few months ago. I feel ya, girl. Lots of prayer headed his way!

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  7. Teri wrote:

    Neely, I continue to keep you and your Dad in my prayers. I pray that he beats cancer, and is on the road to a recovery and a long and full life. Hugs to you!

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  8. Jessica wrote:

    I’m praying for you and your dad!! I’m so sorry he is sick.

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  9. Niki Abel wrote:

    Sending you and your dad prayers!! {huge hugs}

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  10. Neely, I will send you and your family so many prayers.. My grandfather passed away 1 year ago this month from cancer and the day before my dads birthday. cherish the moments you are spending together right now, and know that when it is his time to go, its because the good lord said it was his time and two that he will no longer be in any pain or suffering. I know nothing I can say will ease your pain or hurt you are feeling right now.

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  11. Sending hugs and prayers from Canada. So sorry your family is going through this. I’ve lost too many people to Cancer. Cancer sucks doesn’t even begin to describe it.

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  12. You and yours are in my prayers. God bless your father and all that love him.

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  13. Stephanie wrote:

    I can identify with you all too much. Prayers coming your way.

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  14. Kimberly wrote:

    thinking of you. My Mom had cervical cancer…….its tough, I know. Hang in there.

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  15. I’m so sorry Neely. I’ve been praying for your dad since you first told us about his diagnosis and treatments. Definitely keep us updated *hugs*

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  16. Joey wrote:

    Praying for you and your dad, Neely. I am so sorry you all have to go through this. Hugs.

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  17. Gina wrote:

    It seems that a lot of my blogfriends are struggling today. I’ll spend some time in quiet prayer this afternoon and add you to the list.

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  18. Amy G. wrote:

    Prayers for your dad, you and your whole family. Keep your chin up sweet girl and let us know if we can help in any way!

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  19. Prayers for you sweet girl to hold on the hope. I will add your dad to our weekly prayer list!

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  20. Neely,

    Cancer is a terribly difficult thing to go through. There aren’t words to explain my sympathy, nobody should have to go through that. Just know that we are all here for you, we are praying for you, and we all hope for recovery. Stay optimistic, even when it’s most difficult.

    Love and prayers to you and yours.

    Melissa Knott

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  21. Prayers for you and your family.

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  22. Sara wrote:

    Sending thoughts to you and your family.

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  23. I am so so sorry to hear this 🙁 My prayers are with you.

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  24. Ashley wrote:

    You and your dad are in my prayers. I’m so sorry to hear what you and your family are going through.

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  25. Taryn wrote:

    🙁 stay strong. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

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  26. I guess the “circle of life” is so true. We become our parents parent. Lots of prayers for all your family, you and your dad.

    xo~Sylvia

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  27. Raquel Ita wrote:

    Watching a loved one suffer is one of the worst things to go through. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong!

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  28. Sheena Rae wrote:

    I know how you feel, it was almost two years ago that my grandpa,who raised me, died of cancer. I pray that your family is healed, that your dad will not suffer, and that you will have strength through the whole thing.

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  29. JulieBug wrote:

    I’m sorry you are going through this too Neely. I’ve lost a lot of people from cancer and currently my father in law is on his last days from that damn disease. I will keep your Dad in my prayers as well as you and the rest of your family.

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  30. Milla wrote:

    I am not religious, but will keep you in my thoughts and hope that it will all go well! x

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  31. Kristin wrote:

    Sending thoughts to you and your family. I can’t imagine having gone through all that at your age (and I am only 3 years younger). <3

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  32. Stay strong! Sending prayers and love your way!

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  33. Julie wrote:

    I will pray for you and your family. I know you don’t want to hear that people know how you feel, because each person is different, but I was in your shoes 12 years ago, watching my Mom slip away after everything that was humanly possible get done to try to beat her cancer. Just do your best to stay as strong as you can but know its okay to cry. My thoughts are with you 🙂

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  34. Lins wrote:

    Sending prayers your way. Try to stay strong. This post brought tears to my eyes. I hope he beats it. <3

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  35. Mrs. Bear wrote:

    I am sending lots of prayers, love, and strength your way. <3

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  36. Ashley wrote:

    Sending my positive energy your way. Cancer is tough and having sick parents on top of it sucks. We’ve been doing hospitals for about 8 years now and it’s draining. I hope things turn in your favor soon!!

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  37. Carolyn wrote:

    I’m thinking about you friend!! 🙁

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  38. Nicole wrote:

    Praying for you and your dad!

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  39. Liz wrote:

    Cancer is the ultimate dirty word. I hate Cancer! I just said a prayer for your Daddy!

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  40. Praying! I lost my dad last year and it’s rough. I’m praying you don’t have to go through that anytime soon!

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  41. I’ll be sure to send extra prayers out for your family. Hang in there.

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  42. Jana Faith wrote:

    Praying for peace and healing in your family…

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  43. Deanna wrote:

    Sending prayers and hugs.

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  44. Prayers are going up for y’all!! Stay strong!

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  45. sending happy thoughts and tons of prayers your way, my daddy’s name is Mark too 🙂

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  46. Mateya wrote:

    Thinking about you and praying for you and your dad!

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  47. Christy wrote:

    Sending lots of prayers your way =)

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  48. Shelley wrote:

    What a horrible situation. Praying for your dad!!

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  49. I’m so sorry Neely! I will keep you, your dad and your whole family in my prayers.

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  50. kim-d wrote:

    I am so sorry, Neely; I understand, as I have been where you are. From the day that you wrote about your Dad’s cancer I have included “Neely’s Dad” in my daily prayer. I will now be praying especially hard specifically for Mark. Sending thoughts of strength to you!

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  51. Meghan wrote:

    Praying for you hun & especially for your daddy!

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  52. Raven wrote:

    awww Neely I am praying, NOW. I could not imagine. Text me anytime you need to talk. Love you!

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  53. Julie wrote:

    I am so sorry to hear this. I know exactly how you feel. I went through my dad having cancer a few years back. My thoughts are with you and your family.

    Julie

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  54. I mentioned it on twitter this morning, but you and your father are both in my prayers.

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  55. You and your family are in my prayers.

    <3

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  56. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way.

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  57. Jane Doe wrote:

    Prayers and positive vibes your way!

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  58. Jane wrote:

    I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. He will be in my prayers.

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  59. Breenah wrote:

    I will definitely be praying for you and your family.

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  60. your father & your family are in my prayers. hang in their neely! god has a plan.

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  61. Meagan wrote:

    I hate that you have been through all of this. I am praying for your dad and you.

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  62. I will think of him in my prayers. I’m so sorry. Stay strong and share as much love as you possibly can.

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  63. Ana wrote:

    aw im so sorry Neely, hes in my prayers, i cant imagine what you and your family must be going through, stay strong for your daddy! 🙂 X

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  64. Mrs. Mama wrote:

    Sending prayers Neely.

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  65. Nathan wrote:

    Sending you prayers, sorry that you’ve been through all of this. Stay strong!

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  66. Chelsea wrote:

    It breaks my heart to read this! I am so sorry to hear about your father. The power of prayer and positive thinking is amazing! I know that things will be OK!! Trust in faith, the doctors, and the love that your family has will get you through this!

    Chelsea
    http://www.hautechildinthecity.com

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  67. Jessie wrote:

    Oh this post has made me so sad. It’s so hard to see someone slowly die but he’s a strong man he’ll conquer this.

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  68. I’m so sorry girl!!! I’ll be thinking about you!

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  69. Christine wrote:

    I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I could tell something was going on with your Twitter and Facebook posts but I never thought that it would be something like this. You are a strong family and will get through this. Your dad will make it. There is no other way.

    <3 Christine

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  70. Molly wrote:

    Praying for you, your family, and your dad!

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  71. Erin wrote:

    Prayers are lifted. Thinking of you.

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  72. Arrie wrote:

    Praying for you.

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  73. JoyLeanne wrote:

    Praying for you. I can’t even imagine.

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  74. JKT wrote:

    Prayers for your dad, you and your family, sweet girl. Y’all are on my heart.

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  75. aw Neely. Praying for you and your family.

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  76. Middletini wrote:

    I don’t know you, but you and your dad are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  77. Oh Neely I hope and pray God gives you and your family hope, peace, and persistence. I will be keeping not only your father Mark in my prayers but you in them as well as you face this struggle!

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  78. Social wrote:

    My prayers are with you and your family.

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  79. Lauren wrote:

    Praying for you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing this with us and please keep us posted.

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  80. Bri Tomlin wrote:

    I am not a religious person and I’ve never really prayed. However, hearing stories like these makes me wish deeply that there is a higher deity out there watching over people. I’m hoping you and your family finds strength during these hard times.

    My family knows of a doctor out in Houston, Dr. Burzynski. His treatment is very personalized. I’m not sure if it’s something you wanna hear, but it doesn’t hurt to check it out, Here is his website http://www.burzynskiclinic.com/ Again, if this in anyways seems rude or anything, I am sorry.

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  81. Leslie wrote:

    Oh Neely, I’m praying SO so hard for you and your family right now. It’s so hard to see loved ones in the hospital, and cancer is such a terrible terrible thing. Hoping for peace for your dad during this terrible struggle, and sending loving thoughts your way sweet friend!

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  82. Nikki wrote:

    I know what it’s like to watch your parents go through such terrible things. My mom had lung cancer. She fought it for 2 years before she passed away. I was 20 years old. Now at 27 my dad (also named Mark) just went through bladder cancer and beat it. He’s on the watch list of course, but for now, it’s gone. I’ll be praying for you and your family, Neely. You’ll all get through this and know that there are others out there going through it too.

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  83. Niki wrote:

    Neely, I can’t even begin to say how sorry I am for what you and your family are going through. All my love goes out to you. Praying. xo

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  84. Erin Heydt wrote:

    I know your dad will get through this, I just feel it in my bones. So much has already been said so I’ll keep it simple. I’m always here and I’m always thinking of you. You are one of the strongest people I know. Let me know if you need me.

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  85. Kiley wrote:

    This made me cry. I wish I knew the right words to say friend. You and your dad and strong and I will be praying for him so hard! x x

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  86. Me :) wrote:

    When my dad was fighting he always said that hope was half the battle. Always keep your head up and pray to god to give you the strengh to keep that hope. I will be praying for you guys!

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  87. JMc wrote:

    Praying for your dad, you and your family right now. Praying for healing and for you both to have continued hope!

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  88. Kasey wrote:

    I am praying for your dad. And you and your family! It is so tough to see loved ones suffering and I hope things start to look up for your dad soon! Hugs to you.

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