I spent 3 plus years in a relationship that had no future. Its true. I knew it from 2 months in. I told C we needed to break up after 2 months because I felt he wasn’t into our relationship and I did not want to waste time. Of course he came crawling back said he wanted to be with me and he would change….I heard that about a dozen times over the next 3 years.
I wont go into too many details about how and why things finally ended and the conclusions I had to come to. I was told at a very young age “when you’re done when you’re really and truly done wild horses couldn’t drag you back.” Its true. Things officially ended several months ago.
A lot of us have had experiences with guys that just dont treat us right. I’ve seen so many of my friends in the past and lately go through things like this and it hurts my heart because I can remember the pain. The pain I dont think ever really goes away. It gets easier as time goes on and you stop blaming yourself and you stop crying and one day you’re just good again.
Then you meet someone that changes everything. I met A a mere 3 weeks ago. Exactly today. That sounds crazy right. It was one of those first dates that is indescribably good. That you leave and you know you’ve met someone special. Date number 2 was 3 days later, number 3 2 days after that….and so on. The phone and text conversations about serious topics and favorite things and laughs and that feeling of renewed faith in relationships and in the future. That moment where you have the “are we official?” talk came. He helped me recover from a surgery in the sweetest ways possible. He says things to me that not only C but no guy I’ve dated have ever said and makes me a kind of safe and secure feeling I’ve never known.
To protect the innocent I wont use his full name until I feel thats appropriate but for now we can call him A. A is amazing and every time I spend with him I feel it goes too fast. He makes me smile and laugh and makes my heart happy in a way I did not think possible a year ago.
When its different you just know. A feeling washes over you like you wouldn’t believe and you just know….its different this time.