Well here I am a few weeks away from this baby being born or rather 20 days till my due date. In some ways it feels like it went really quick and in other ways I feel like this journey has taken forever. I wanted to share some pregnancy thoughts at 9 months mostly for me to be able to look back on to remember this time.
Pregnancy Thoughts At 9 Months
The last days of just us: I can’t help but think about how our marriage is about to change. Obviously for the better because we will have this little boy that we created and get to raise together. But gone are the nights of binge watching without interruption, or spontaneous dates. Gone is sleeping in, not needing a schedule, etc. We went to a movie a couple of weekends ago and I just sat there thinking that this could be the last movie we go see together without having a babysitter. Just random thoughts like that jump into my mind. However, I love thinking about our Monday nights of Bachelor watching with our little dude hanging out with us.
So much anxiety: I am an anxious person by nature. I always have been. I have anxiety about giving birth even though I fully intend to have the epidural. I have anxiety about knowing if I’m in labor – duh I’ll know. I have anxiety about raising him, making the right choices, did we get a good bassinet? Did I pick the right pacifiers? There are way too many decisions.
Will I be good enough: Will I be a good mom? A good role model? Will we raise him with good values, morals, and expectations? Will I be good enough for myself? Will I be able to work and raise him? Will I fail somewhere? Probably.
So these are just a few of the pregnancy thoughts at 9 months going through my head. I’m sure the next couple of weeks will bring hundreds more.