I have talked many times on the blog about my struggle with my body. I have never felt comfortable in my body and I have never been OK with the way it looks. I have small boobs and huge hips. I have a butt. I have tons of curves and they are completely not proportionate with the rest of my body. When I gain weight I gain weight in my stomach, hips and butt.
I know a lot of women put weight on after their weddings. “Happy pounds” I have heard them called. I knew about this way before we got married. Before our wedding I lost a ton of weight. Some on purpose some not on purpose. I was at my tiniest on our wedding day weighing in at 117 lbs. My dress had to be held up by A LOT of double stick tape because it fit perfectly at my final dress fitting 2 weeks before. I usually average around 125-130. I am five foot seven so this is completely in line with my BMI. On our honeymoon in Hawaii I finally felt like I could eat again and the weight wouldn’t drop because of stress. So I ate and ate and ate without caring about working out.
Then the holidays came and things like monkey bread, pastries etc just looked so good. I also wasn’t as strict about working out. Back in March I got back into pure barre during the 20 in 31 challenge and thankfully I have kept up with going at least 3 times a week since then. But when we moved in April my eating habits tanked. I no longer was making green smoothies everyday. I was eating 3 meals a day out because we were back and forth working on the new house. I was eating horribly and not exercising and generally felt terrible. I hate that sluggish feeling after you stop eating healthy and working out. The lack of energy is awful.
I broke down over the weekend to Andrew. I hated the way I looked in pictures and just didn’t want to take pictures. I wasn’t taking pride in my appearance either. Summer of 2010 I completely changed the way I ate. I stopped eating processed foods, fast food, and really logged what I ate. I also exercised 6-7 days a week. Even before the wedding Andrew and I were going for walks almost every night after dinner.
So I am putting this on the blog because I want to be held accountable. I am going back to my old ways starting yesterday.
These are the goals I have for myself:
1. Eat nothing processed
2. Green smoothies/juices daily
3. More veggies, less carbs
4. More lean proteins
5. 5-6 solid workouts a week
6. Nightly walks/bike rides after dinner
7. Feeling confident in my body
I know it won’t be easy, nothing worthwhile ever is.
I hope everyone has a good day!